A Yearning ...

... in the deficit

Something that has been on my heart throughout recent months is the sudden rise of ADHD in our children and young generation in particular. It is something we never use to hear of nor was it recognised until given a label as such.  And the word "deficit" keeps ringing loudly in my ears and it has caused me to think ... not just about the deficit that can exist deep within our souls, but also about the labels that can be put upon something or someone along the way ... and the expectations or even lack of ... we can have because of it all. Don't misunderstand ... I am not saying labels aren't a good thing; they provide us with important information that help us to recognise something for what it is - so that we can then make decisions that are right for each individual situation.  However, what is meant for good can also be twisted depending on our own previous experience and we can be in danger of making assumptions if we are not careful.

For example, we may have tasted from a bottle of wine one week when another week we may open another bottle of the same variety near enough the exact same ingredients ... but have we realised that this one is actually under a different name. Before we taste it, our expectations from the previous bottle may tell us that what we are about to taste from the next one will be the same as what we had before ... but have we read and compared the information on both bottles or have we presumed from the first one as to what the second one will taste like?  How much more if we've had the very same bottle of wine year after year when suddenly we are given a different one ... 

​And what about the labels in the form of "titles" we want to give ourselves? Again, names and titles are good and important in helping to give information about who we are and what we do ... but when that becomes twisted and intertwined with the need to "be important" out of a deficit and lack of knowing who we are, we can be in danger of forging a false identity instead of walking in the Truth of who we are and the G-D given identity forged for us from the beginning. Each of us are important and have our very own role to play in the body of Yeshua ... we are not meant to be cloned or replicated ... but it is only when we recognise our need of Him and allow Him to fill that empty void on the inside that we can become whole in all He has created us to BE while also discovering what it is we are meant to BE doing in His Kingdom.  This can often involve letting go of all those things we have previously hung onto in our feeble attempts to desperately try to fill that aching void within ... ways which can actually be part of our human need that G-D has given to us, but again ... when things that were meant for blessing begin to get twisted and they begin to over-ride G-D's perfect ways for us to experience that human need, we can end up off balance and out of kilter, even falling into a pit. 

​It can be a very painful journey when we suddenly recognise the deep void from within where we did not have what G-D intended from the very beginning ... the sense of loss can be overwhelming and everything within the very core of our being can be crying out for comfort and for that void to be filled ... because it can feel unbearable ... but if we could just take His hand ... if we could only just allow Him to walk with us in it and ask Him to help us to trust Him even more than we have before ... trust Him to lead us out of all that remains simply nothing but empty and false promise of fulfilment ... if only we can remain hopeful as we continue to yearn for Him above all things in the deficit and void ... that the void will eventually be filled and our cup will overflow and ever remain over-flowing with Him and all His goodness for all eternity. This is my prayer for each and every one of us ... amen.

Shalom ...

Rose 


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