... and our Covering
As I woke this morning, I kept seeing the coat that had accidentally been left inside a friend’s car … I kept seeing the times over these many weeks where each morning I have put my little lamb at the foot of my bed - not a living one of course... although… might be nice ; ) … each time I have laid that lamb down, it was if I was seeing Ruth uncovering the feet of Boaz … her kinsman redeemer. And then I remembered my recent reading through Judah & Tamar and how great was her desperation out of the lies, falsehood & broken promise … did it cause her to do what she normally wouldn’t? And yet, out of her womb came one of twins called Perez which can mean “breach or break forth, breakthrough.” I am reminded that G-D is the G-D of the breakthrough!! And with His help, we can also be ones to repair the breach in the wall just as Nehemiah did with the walls of Jerusalem!
And then strangely … I began hearing the words from Notting Hill - a film from years ago - a loud "WHAAT!!!" interupting my thoughts, LOL!! But then becoming a little more somber as I [perhaps with some of you] remember the words of Julia Roberts standing as a woman before the one she loves, with tears in her eyes softly saying …
... in the deficit
Something that has been on my heart throughout recent months is the sudden rise of ADHD in our children and young generation in particular. It is something we never use to hear of nor was it recognised until given a label as such. And the word "deficit" keeps ringing loudly in my ears and it has caused me to think ... not just about the deficit that can exist deep within our souls, but also about the labels that can be put upon something or someone along the way ... and the expectations or even lack of ... we can have because of it all. Don't misunderstand ... I am not saying labels aren't a good thing; they provide us with important information that help us to recognise something for what it is - so that we can then make decisions that are right for each individual situation. However, what is meant for good can also be twisted depending on our own previous experience and we can be in danger of making assumptions if we are not careful.
For example, we may have tasted from a bottle of wine one week when another week we may open another bottle of the same variety near enough the exact same ingredients ... but have we realised that this one is actually under a different name. Before we taste it, our expectations from the previous bottle may tell us that what we are about to taste from the next one will be the same as what we had before ... but have we read and compared the information on both bottles or have we presumed from the first one as to what the second one will taste like? How much more if we've had the very same bottle of wine year after year when suddenly we are given a different one ...
And what about the labels in the form of "titles" we want to give ourselves? Again, names and titles are good and important in helping to give information about who we are and what we do ... but when that becomes twisted and intertwined with the need to "be important" out of a deficit and lack of knowing who we are, we can be in danger of forging a false identity instead of walking in the Truth of who we are and the G-D given identity forged for us from the beginning. Each of us are important and have our very own role to play in the body of Yeshua ... we are not meant to be cloned or replicated ... but it is only when we recognise our need of Him and allow Him to fill that empty void on the inside that we can become whole in all He has created us to BE while also discovering what it is we are meant to BE doing in His Kingdom. This can often involve letting go of all those things we have previously hung onto in our feeble attempts to desperately try to fill that aching void within ... ways which can actually be part of our human need that G-D has given to us, but again ... when things that were meant for blessing begin to get twisted and they begin to over-ride G-D's perfect ways for us to experience that human need, we can end up off balance and out of kilter, even falling into a pit.
It can be a very painful journey when we suddenly recognise the deep void from within where we did not have what G-D intended from the very beginning ... the sense of loss can be overwhelming and everything within the very core of our being can be crying out for comfort and for that void to be filled ... because it can feel unbearable ... but if we could just take His hand ... if we could only just allow Him to walk with us in it and ask Him to help us to trust Him even more than we have before ... trust Him to lead us out of all that remains simply nothing but empty and false promise of fulfilment ... if only we can remain hopeful as we continue to yearn for Him above all things in the deficit and void ... that the void will eventually be filled and our cup will overflow and ever remain over-flowing with Him and all His goodness for all eternity. This is my prayer for each and every one of us ... amen.
... yet will I trust Him!
And the L-RD said to Satan,
"Have you considered My servant Job,
that there is no one like him on the earth,
a perfect and upright man, one who reveres G-D
and turns away from bad?"
H ave we ever considered Job?
I am pretty sure that for many of us, the answer to that question is a loud and resounding 'yes.' I for one can recall a time in my life 20 years ago where I found great comfort from the life of Job ... here was a man who lost everything but also one who would come to be GREATLY restored ... BEYOND IMAGINATION!!! The L-RD blessed the latter end of Job more than his beginning! even giving him TWICE AS MUCH as he had before! A man who went through such trials and tribulations ... a man whom G-D Himself releases to haSatan, but only so far and no further... "All that he has is in your power, only do not put forth your hand upon him himself." And yet ... Job was able to say in the midst of all his pain and turmoil ...
"Though He slay me, yet will I trust Him."
But even before this, look at what Job does upon hearing of the destruction of his house ... in chapter 1:20 we read "Then Job rose and tore his cloak and shaved his head and fell down upon the ground and worshipped!" It really is quite something when we stop to really consider the life of Job!!! I am already seeing things within its first few pages that I never truly saw before ... and I am left feeling like what I thought I read before I didn't truly see it ... do you know what I mean?
But ... can I please tell you something? Do you want to know what my heart found? It is so beautiful!! The words Job spoke after this ... they hit me so hard when I read it, as it reminded me of David's own heart found in Psalm 51:11 when he says, "Do not cast me away from Your presence, and do not take Your Holy Spirit from me." Job was "pleading his case" before Adonai ... even saying, "if now I hold my tongue, I perish!" But then he says these words ... can we not hear a bit of an echo of David's heart in Job chapter 13:20-21 when he says, "Only two things do not do to me, then I will not hide myself from You: withdraw Your hand far from me, and let not the dread of You make me afraid." My heart became overwhelmed in reading those words ... melting like wax once again before Hashem! In the midst of all Job was experiencing, it seems his main concern is that he does not lose G-D ... interesting though that he uses the word "dread" which means "terror" or "horror." Also interesting that he asks G-D not to withdraw His hand from him. Could it be that Job knew G-D to the extent of knowing He was the provider of all things he possessed ... but yet in his heart, he was terrified of the very same One who was faithful in providing for him? Did G-D truly "possess" the heart of Job? Or was it Job's possessions? And that was the question HaSatan was bringing before HaShem! Was Job just going through the motions? I don't know ... I am just thinking out loud ... but ... I think I will have to dig a bit deeper on that one ... what I thought was going to be a simple and straight forward entry today has already proven to hold more twists and turns than I expected ... my head is spinning with more questions than answers ... and I have not even made it past chapter 2!!! ; )
So ... through these twists and turns, you are welcome to come on this journey of discovery with me ... let's see where we get to ...
I am sure for each and every one of us, we can think of times where we have found ourselves in a difficult situation that has caused us to cry out for wisdom for lack of knowing what else to do. We may have gone over the situation time and again in our minds, looking at the different ways we could try to fix things and make it right ... only to realise that there is nothing more we can do. We come to the realisation that this is something only G-D Himself can make right. In the times we find ourselves "caught between a rock and a hard place," there is nothing more we can do other than wait on Him as we cry out to the Rock on which we stand … "Yeshua Messiah! I acknowledge that there is nothing I can do to fix this ... please come make this right where I can't." Sometimes the more we try to fix a situation in our own strength, the more of a mess it creates. BUT ... there is nothing too hard for the G-D of Israel ... and I believe ...
He is the only One who can turn a mess into a Message ...
a test into a Testimony!
... in all things ... in every season!
May I please be an encourager through the thoughts that came to my heart as the 3rd candle of Chanukah was being kindled here in the UK … a 3rd song being ignited within my heart to sing and share with you. My heart is that G-D would encourage each and every one of us in the place right where we are, while also inspiring us to keep stepping out, moving forward and stepping into all He has put in our hearts to be and to do in Him and for Him … that the dreams and visions He has placed within each of us would come to fruition … and here’s the key … in His perfect time.
This caused me to think of the word “Opportunity” I shared with you yesterday. And then I remembered this week’s Parsha - Yosef finally being set free from prison. So it got me thinking …
About the places in our own lives where we have perhaps felt squeezed or in a very tight place … perhaps there are times where we have felt frustrated because things weren’t happening quickly enough …
As the 2nd candle of Chanukah was kindled, a 2nd flame burst forth from my heart in the form of a song and out of the words of Hannah found in 1 Samuel 2! I could hear a melody beginning to play as I began to sing the words He gave to me … a dance and a twirl beginning in the depths of my soul as the song suddenly turned from 1 Samuel 2 to Zechariah 4:6 and then to Psalm 121 … finally finishing with the words that were at the beginning … the words that are still ringing through my heart … “There is no holy one like the L-RD., Truly, there is none beside You; there is no rock like our G-D … there is no holy one, no holy one like the L-RD!”
And then thoughts of Chanukah once again came bursting forth … and I pondered until I suddenly saw the gifts that are often given over this time of celebration as we remember all that HaShem has done for us as His people … the way He has kept us and continues to keep us … we remain resilient in spite of the darkest trials.
Four weeks ago I had surgery on my right ankle … thankful for those who prayed! Just before surgery, a friend said to me something about letting this “op” become an “Opportunity.” I was not relishing the thought of not being able to drive for 8 weeks, BUT … on receiving those words, I prayed that HaShem would engrave that word on my heart during this time. AND HE HAS!!! I gently asked HaShem at one point “Abba, show me … opportunity for what exactly?” And as I began to adjust to moving around with my cast those first 2 weeks, I suddenly kept hearing these words blow softly through my spirit … “opportunity for PRAISE!” And praise has indeed been rising in my heart as I am able to look back at all the L-RD has done in me and for me, but I am also giving Him Praise in advance for what He will do in my life and through my life for the days to come … my heart’s desire is to make a difference for His Kingdom … to see each and every one of us who belong to Him not merely survive, but to joyfully thrive with the abundant life of which Yeshua speaks! And I stand in prayer with you as we stand together in the greater body of Mashiach … that together, as He takes us - working in us, teaching us, building us, growing us and establishing us … “step by step” and “stone by stone” - we will become like that city upon a hill. It has been just over 2 years ago now that I cried out to Him from the depths of my heart … from a very dry and barren place just like Hannah … and today I stand and I am able to give Him thanks, with all the glory, all the praise and all the honour that is due His name and Him alone! Just like Hannah, my heart proclaims the words …
I woke this morning with this melody playing through my heart … a song that I have not heard or sung for many years - 23 years ago as a new believer. I kept hearing its words “hold the candle high” … and thoughts of Chanukah came pouring into my heart. I soon found the lyrics and began to sing it until I realized that I was singing this song like a prayer urgently pouring from the depths of my heart … a prayer for the broken-hearted, for those who feel alone and isolated especially over the holidays when families and friends will be gathering. A prayer for the lost who are sat in darkness, wondering where G-D is and if He really does exist? And as I am writing, I look again to see that my hearts cry is really for every Jew and every gentile who will be grafted into Israel … that they will Truly become One New Man and finally find their way HOME!! That the G-D of Israel will open the eyes of the blind, unblock the ears of those who cannot hear, unlock the door for all those who are imprisoned from within … give back the voice to those who have been silenced ... give back expression to those who have been bound ... set His people FREE that they may serve the One True Living G-D ... soften the stony hearts and make them flesh … that He will be our G-D and we will be His people … a light shining like a city upon a hill!! “Yerushalayim O Yerushalayim …” my heart cries!!
I look to see the Shamash … the servant candle that lights every other candle on the Chanakiah. I looked and I saw Yeshua HaMashiach!! The One who came as suffering servant … BenYosef! The One who we cry out to COME and take His rightful place on The Throne as BenDavid! As we cry out to Him to come and take His rightful place on the throne of our hearts … that as we bow down low before Him, divided hearts would be made whole - made soft as flesh in His mighty Hand, but as strong as a weapon against the enemy's intimidation and threats - like the one small stone in David’s hand … ALL for His Kingdom plans and purposes! HIS VICTORY to be proclaimed, HIS NAME to be exalted and praised for all eternity!
As I am preparing to literally move house, all my things are boxed up and ready to go. I thought about this being the first time since walking this walk of loving obedience that I was not able to light my Chanukiah. I suddenly felt a reassurance in my heart as I began to pray with a different mindset from deep within. My prayer became that we would not simply light the Chanukiah because it is “just what we do” or “expected to do.” But that as we lift The Servant candle high, we would ask Him to ignite a flame within our hearts that can never be extinguished or snuffed out. That we would do these things with "genuineness of heart" and not a "did my part." And not just that we would hold that flame in our hearts to keep ourselves warm, but that we would then reach out with His servant heart to warm the hearts of others. That as we open the doors of our homes this Chanukah, that we would remember to open the doors of our hearts to those who are hurting and need love and reassurance, for those who need acceptance and belonging, forgiveness and reconciliation ... that we would all know the restoration power of HaShem ... SHUVU!!! That we would become like little sparks lighting up the night as we burst forth with the Light of Mashiach, allowing Him to be the light that shines through us! That the world around us would find that G-D has not abandoned us, but He is simply waiting for us to shine His Light and usher in the return of His people … ultimately the return of Mashiach! That He can welcome us and call us sons and daughters as we gather around His table with genuineness and joy in our hearts ... and PRAISE on our lips!!
Have a blessed time everyone as we light the candles and allow Him to ignite us … from tiny sparks into a united flame!
Chag Chanukah Sameach!
KNOW THIS!!! O People of G-D!!! We who are Israel and all who are grafted in ... KNOW THIS THIS DAY ... AS I PROCLAIM LOUD AND CLEAR FOR ALL WHO WILL HEAR ... FOR THIS THING I KNOW ...
There is NOTHING impossible for our G-D!!! There is NOTHING that He cannot handle! NOTHING too big that He cannot forgive! NOTHING that would make Him love us any more or any less! And there is NOTHING He wouldn't do - NO place He wouldn't go - NO lengths He wouldn't swim to - NO depths He wouldn't dive to ... in order to rescue our hearts and bring us back to Him and hold us close to His very breast as a mother would her newborn child ... that we would know what it is to BE found, to BE accepted, to BE held, to BE loved, to BE comforted, to BE in His family ... that we would finally know what it is to BE safe and sound in His everlasting arms ... and ... to BE welcomed
And suddenly ... out of the blue, I hear the words of
Adonai as One walking in the garden
looking for His children,
His heart crying out ...
"Where are you?"
Listen carefully ... do you hear?
COME ... DRAW just a little bit closer,
COME ... DRAW near
Can you hear the voice of One calling
as He whispers in your ear
"It is NOT that He doesn't know
where we are!!
It IS His heart's cry:
"Why have you hidden yourself from Me?
Please come home!"
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